my love for grey's anatomy

i'm going back to the "princess diaries" period where i always imitate Mia Thermopolis making lists for almost everything. yea.

top 10 reasons why i LOVE grey's anatomy:

1. Derek Shepherd (Patrick Dempsey) is H.A.W.T! i can just melt. yea, like that.

2. all other hot people in the show eg, Mark Sloan, Alex Karev, etc

3. the story is just too engaging

4. it's so emo, dark and twisted

5. can learn, ok not really "learn" learn but can know more err... anatomy? medicines? argh, whatever la. you just get to hear about all kinds of deceases/sickness/whatever. at least now i know that when one is to be hung to death, one dies not because one is out of breath, but because hanging breaks the neck

6. totally, absolutely love grey's narration. like the last one that i heard, "because when it comes to love, even freaks can't wait forever."

7. yes, it's a bit "chaotic" sometimes, but i love the way people in it love, like Christina and Owen, Meredith and Derek, and sometimes Lexy and Mark

8. it makes me feel a little bit more sophisticated? hahahha cuz i don't watch that many shows

9. not too cliche

10. good looking people making out. oops!

i surprised myself.

leann says (12:33 AM):

 exchange life.. every weekend got sth to look forward to

Dx says (12:33 AM):
 issit?
 what's there to look forward?

leann says (12:34 AM):

 traveling la

Dx says (12:34 AM):
 hahaha
Dx says (12:35 AM):
 i guess there's nothing i can do about that
 but in exchange for that, i think staying by Vik's side is worth it!!

leann says (12:36 AM):

 thats ok la

 i mean its good too

 but its different

Dx says (12:36 AM):
 hmmm

leann says (12:36 AM):

 i know i cant have the best of both worlds

Dx says (12:37 AM):
 oh.. wait
 you have the best of both worlds
 hahaha
 Vik is your world, and having Vik is having the world
 no? yes?
 hahaha

leann says (12:38 AM):

 eh different la

 he's important

 but he's not everything

leann says (12:39 AM):

 my world doesnt consist only him

 he's just part of it

 a big part

 an important part

Dx says (12:40 AM):
 WWWAaaaaa
 that's not what you told me earlier

leann says (12:40 AM):

 what did i say earlier

Dx says (12:41 AM):
 you said you can't live without Vik

leann says (12:41 AM):

 well

leann says (12:42 AM):

 i guess i;ve grown then

Dx says (12:42 AM):
 =)


thank you, baby. 

sianness

i know it's normal to feel lousy, upset, frustrated, sian and what not. but this is happening too often to me. i need to stop it! but i don't know what's the cause of this stupid feeling. sigh. and i feel that i have no friend. all my friends are always busy. or they have more important and interesting people to hang out with, like their partners. and then there comes a time when my own boyfriend is busy. and i will end up alone getting frustrated with myself. i don't hate being with myself. but i hate being at wherever i am. especially in my own hostel room. this place just irritates me now.
so every time i feel lousy, i go for retail therapy. yeah, it helps. a lot. but it doesn't help that my bank account is depleting. i don't have a lot to start with. so baby says the main problem is the money. yeah, i think it is. what can i do to have more money? my pocket money is like one third of normal people's pocket money. i get 300 bucks a month. that includes my transportation and phone bills. so i have like 200 left for food and other expenses. i can only use 6-7 bucks a day. though baby always pays for my meals, if i keep going for retail therapy whenever i'm upset, how will i ever get enough money?
so baby says i should think of other things that i can do by myself without spending money. i know there are quite many things that i can do alone that doesn't cost money, like doing work, studying, exercising, reading and etc. i need to do work. i have a lot of work to do. but i don't feel like doing it. i don't feel like doing anything. i don't feel like myself. i don't know what the fuck is happening to me. where is the normal happy optimistic me? why is this happening to me?